Good morning Thursday!
Im currently battling on with my depression & anxiety it’s very hard to cope with, at first I found different ways to help pull me out of those dark places but now I see no escape.
That’s why I’ve finally turned to professional help I have an appointment next week to see what my options are & go from there really. I find it very difficult having to call in sick to work but at the end of the day I have to put myself first.
Nobody likes you when you call in sick but I have to do what’s right after all I never have time off. It’s hard knowing what to do with the time off as well do you stay in or go for a walk? do you surround yourself with people or stay alone? I never really know what’s best for me.
It’s taken me a while to fully open up to people about this & I’ve always been honest with them & gave true answers to their questions even though sometimes it’s the same questions I’m always asked, just wish sometimes other people took you more seriously & actually showed they cared instead of thinking about themselves or the company they & you work for.
I just new with myself that something wasn’t right I just remember thinking “this isn’t me, this isn’t normal, I need help” but I’ve been told that feeling this way is normal but to get that into your own head is a battle within its self.
I will accept all help that comes my way I’m open to try anything new it’s hard not working because deep down I know I love my job it’s just the struggle & stress that comes with it is impossible to deal with.
Right now I need to work hard on getting the right help for me & fighting through this darkness that’s been clouded over me. I have a huge amount of support from my partner family & very close friends I couldn’t thank them enough I love them so so much 💖
If anyone has any helpful advice do let me know thanks so much for reading 💖